Just one girl's thoughts…
And as we sat in all consuming silence I felt everything collapse within me like a house of cards.
You never cared for me
You never saw me for anything that I was
You merely craved the idea of me
But I am a person who contains multitudes when what you needed was simplicity.
I wished so badly in that moment to be as small and foolish as you’d made me feel.
Because maybe if I was, I wouldn’t see how much nothingness was behind your eyes when you looked at me
~l m d
He calls me darkness
But he doesn’t know that to me, he is the moon
And oh how I love the moon
~l m d
Many have compared the pull of two souls to the moon and the sea
And I feel that too in the ebbs and flows of me and you
~l m d
And suddenly there it was, the end of anything else.
Between four simple walls emerged an entirely new universe existing of just you and I.
Begun by warm brown eyes and a knee-buckling smile.
Built stronger by each interlocked finger and lingering kiss.
Every touch of skin brings new comfort to a wounded heart.
If there is a world beyond this moment, it is foreign to me now.
The hope of a tomorrow in your arms consumes me.
If only this was a world that lived outside my mind.
~l m d
He looked at me with eyes that I had seen rare few other times.
I knew in my bones that if he were to touch me I would burst into flames… but I so badly wanted to be set on fire.
~ l m d
She is standing in my skin, dancing joyfully
She wears my face with a painted smile
She speaks sweet comforts to those who do not know
She is meek for the man who demands her life be for him and loves her best when she obeys
She is strong for burdens that the hurt thrust upon her
She is as an arrow for the family whose fears she holds
She is an empty well
She is a broken frame that holds a torn portrait of a child long gone
She is merely but an echo now
And I am here watching, wondering if they will ever notice that she is not me.
~lmd
Slowly we’ll get back to us;
She and I who break so quickly,
Whose tears fall heavy into empty space.
Time is not a friend and the road stretched before us is worrisome.
Each day we lie with words and sit at tables with only promises to sustain us.
So in the deepest of our nights we will dance to the melodies our cries make,
Until we feel ourselves again.
~lmd
Loving you is as sweet and unexpected as the smell of honeysuckle in the dead of winter ,
as cleansing as raindrops on a cloudless day,
as powerful and devastating as a quake in the earth,
and as evolving as the phases of the moon.
Loving you is an unnatural and unrelenting storm within my soul.
~l m d
Long ago we lived in summer,
but now in the chill of winter we are dying
~l m d
I wake from dreams of you in maddening confusion.
For I have felt your touch so honestly,
Seen your face so vividly, yet you have long since disappeared.
Never before have I dreamed of one this way.
Shall I forever lie awake,
Forever fearful that in slumber you will return to leave me yet again.
So now I beg of you; if our souls cling to each other as I fear they have done all this time,
Release me as you long so painfully to do.
~ l m d