Just one girl's thoughts…
Hold tight
To the touch that makes you feel safe
To the smile that makes you feel seen
To the soul that makes you feel young
To the eyes that make you feel worthy
To the words that make you feel loved
To the days that make the lonely nights alright
Hold tight to what soon becomes memories.
~ l m d
The word is spoken as we are tangled up together, bodies pressed against each other. Comfortable, I begin to believe that the name means something to you. But, suddenly my elation turns to skepticism as I realize it is only when we are like this that I hear that word. All of my doubts come rushing back and overturning the glimmer of hope I had felt just moments ago. Is it just a coincidence or something painfully purposeful? I fear that it will be revealed to be the latter and I wonder how I will feel if it is the truth. For I’m not sure I could handle the taming of your tongue out of fear that it would speak the wrong name.
~ l m d
I wake next to you, head still filled with questions.
I know nothing of your feelings toward me,
I know nothing of what this means to you.
I wish you would tell me how you feel for me,
But I could never ask you all the questions I have.
~ l m d
Lingering and ever-present is the ghost.
Fear floods my body when I finally feel settled,
For he would never truly let me be.
His fury threatens those ones around me,
So, in isolation I keep them safe.
I can not afford to be bold.
Slowly I shut the blinds and lock the doors.
Alone in the house it is just the ghost and I.
He speaks to me in past memories and shared tragedy,
Refusing to let me forget.
As if forgetting had ever been an option.
Around every corner I hesitate, afraid he will be there waiting.
I jump even when he isn’t there,
Because I know that when he catches me, I will be a ghost too.
~ l m d
You are not alone.
Though this world holds darkness unimaginable
And pain that is unbearable to face,
You will not face these things alone.
Though cracks may form
And scars will deepen in your soul,
You will not fix these things alone.
We will be there.
Though you may not want to let us in
And even if you are reluctant to accept the help,
We will hold the pieces of you together.
Though it will take time
And you may not feel allowed to take it,
We will be patient with you and all the time you need.
You are not alone in this hardship,
We are here waiting to love you back to whole.
~l m d
I stand in awe of her.
The kindness of her soul knows no bounds and the warmth of her smile is contagious.
Her beauty penetrates the hearts of all she meets and leaves an everlasting impression.
She has wit and humor unmatched by any I’ve know before her.
She was kissed by the sun and with the wildness of the sea within her.
She is a fierce protector of those she loves, even at the expense of herself.
Bold and brave she fights through the world unafraid.
She is my person, and our hearts will remain tethered through this life.
For she has stolen so much of mine and I of hers that they are one.
~l m d
Fog falls heavy on the 95.
Street lights gleaming orange light that creeps to every edge of the bleak sky.
The world is on fire.
Roads lay vacant, air seems still, but just below burns a fire.
Reservations can not withstand the fury that is coming.
~l m d
The air is cold against your skin, biting to your bones.
Bare branches hang against the backdrop of cotton candy skies.
The world is quiet.
Eyes closed, feeling the dead earth beneath you, you realize the birds have all become silent.
Stoic silhouettes cast harsh shadows against the morning dew covered ground.
Good morning world.
~l m d
Standing all alone today, I heard your voice.
It came through clear,. strong, deep, and warm, just the way you were.
I’m not sure why I was the soul who heard you. The message was not for me, but for more important ones you left behind.
Nevertheless, as florescent bulbs flickered above me, lighting my sad reflection in the cheap unframed mirror, I heard you.
Two words to heal the hurt.
~l m d
All is quiet in the world around,
but inside my head is a mad house…
~l m d